Musing ATWT PEG fan

This post is based solely on my speculation only.

I feel like I've been so spoiled with all the Paul and Meg we've had over the coarse of the last week. It's the last thing I ever expected to not only have them onscreen together but to get Eliza's birthday and Christmas to?

Now on to my thoughts on some of the players and stories going on...

Meg's crazy - I've been so up and down on this story it is not even funny. On one hand Marie is giving off a great performance of a woman on the edge. On the other hand, some of the turns of this story have MADE NO SENSE WHAT-SO-EVER! Why did her whole persona change in the blink of an eye in the first place? It was never properly explained to my liking. I keep hoping there will be an explanation down the line, but with these writers you never know. I still can't let go of the feeling that there is a brain chip involved here to. James did abduct Meg in 2008, we have no idea what he did in that time. Maybe there was a bright blue light that rendered her unconcious for a time with no memory of what happened. Her behavior as of late, resembles Paul's behavior at the end of 2008 when he was nuts. Parnoid, blackmail, an obsession that leads to everyone saying 'he/she is insane'. It's all the same. And on some level, I think Paul can see that and that's why he's helping her now. BTW - Damian is still a scuzball!! But in the beginning Meg WAS acting crazy. So now I'm supposed to believe she's wrongly accused of being crazy? I don't get it.

Paul/Emily - I believe there is a deep devotion and respect between these two. I don't believe there is a deep love or soulmate thing going on there. And lets face it, being paired with Emily gave Paul about as much airtime as the character of Emily accumulated in the coarse of 2 years. And gave Emily a bit more airtime because of her association with Paul. It's like the show just doesn't know what to do with her character anymore. It could be just me and my bias (yes, I have one) but Emily seems to want this baby much more than Paul. I think Paul went along with it, more because Emily wanted it so bad. However, with Mick involved, I don't see this ending in happy place or quite as anyone expected it would.

Mick/James/Barbara - I'm thrilled that CZP is getting her story that doesn't exactly revolve around her son. She's been vocal about wanting that. And it's clear from her tweets that she is just having a blast with it.

So what's up with Mick claiming to be James? I think there has to be another agenda besides wanting to make ammends with Paul and Barbara. That was very UNJAMES-LIKE when he said that. As AH said in a recent interview that I read, James is not a villain and doesn't believe he did anything wrong. So why would James now feel like he has to make ammends? James has always been about his heirs and having a worthy heir, which he has felt Paul is not. So why now? I don't buy it. Does it have to do with Eliza or perhaps a newly created heir? James has always wanted and heir and Emily is anxious to pop out a baby. Could there be a connection?

I'm really hoping that Mick is not James. Mostly because no one plays James like AH and I want him to come back in all his sick glory. I want James to pay (the right way) for all the ways he's hurt Paul. I want Paul to take this man down before the final curtain falls.

Now we come to the best part - Paul/Meg - Wow like the title says, I'm spoiled and loving it. After months of no interaction at all we've gotten some fantastic stuff. I've said it before and I'll say it again, Paul has never looked at anyone the way he gazes at Meg. It makes me melt each and every single time. So why was Paul the first person Meg called for help. Could she deep down have known that he wouldn't turn her away. That he would believe her and would help her. And why did Paul answer her call for help? Maybe that connection is not as dead as people thought.

On yesterdays show, Paul said that if it came down to a choice between her or us that he would choose 'us'. But in the last week alone let me count the ways that he has already chosen Meg over 'us'.

1. Post-poning the fertility appointment to go find out what was going on with Meg.
2. Choosing to go to Meg's competency hearing over a fertility Dr's appointment with Emily.
3. Lying to Emily about breaking Meg out and hiding her.

I think Emily has reason to feel threatened, even though supposedly months ago, Paul 'proved' his love for her, she is still being pushed aside for his ex. Which has pleased me to no end.

For the future? I do think Paul will have to choose Emily again, especially if there is a brain chip at play with Meg. Then Meg is not in control of her actions, just as Paul couldn't help himself and it eventually brought them (PEG) down as a couple. But can true love ever be denied on soap opera? NOPE, thankfully. :)

Merry Christmas.